Booking appointment at 9 weeks 💛

I had my first midwife appointment on 2nd April where I was 9 weeks! I had been suffering with quite bad anxiety for a couple of weeks due to the Covid-19 pandemic where both me and Timmy are keyworkers.

I had managed to get onto a new thing where I would see the same midwife up until baby was born which absolutely thrilled me as last time I had 5 different midwives before labour and my last one was a bit pants! This also meant I could have my baby at Huddersfield birth Centre which after Oscars birth thrilled me as my experience at Calderdale was absolutely horrific!!

So I sat in the birth Centre waiting to be seen, I felt excited but anxious as I had to attend alone due to the pandemic. This really upset me as I felt like this whole pregnancy was going to be ruined for Timmy due to him not being able to go to scans or appointments!

I got called in and we discussed my mental health (which due to my anxiety was not good) and was going to be passed on to the mental health midwife for some help. I had my bloods taken (which is really hard due to my veins not liking giving blood 🙄) the midwife I met wasn't going to be my midwife due to my actual midwife being on Annual Leave but she seemed very nice! I left the appointment feeling a little bit better and excited for my scan and next appointments! 

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